Kimi Matias Raikkonen, I miss you.

I've watched Formula 1 since I was a little girl, when I didn't really understand what I was seeing, the cars just looked cool zooming around and overtaking each other.

Michael Schumacher was a household name in my household. But I didn't start watching it religiously, on my own, until around 2006 or 2007.

I began watching every single race, memorizing all the events from each one, I couldn't miss even 1 race (even if it was at 2 am and the next day was a school day) and I looked forward to it every other weekend. My ritual was pizza and F1, while sms-ing/chatting with Ya Wen, my partner in F1 crime.

I was (am?) a steadfast Ferrari and Kimi Raikkonen supporter.

This year, I'm not excited about any Formula 1 races at all. Period. It's like my love for Formula 1 left with Kimi Raikkonen at the end of last year :( And I'm STILL NOT OVER IT!!! 

Bloody hell, I cry every time I watch F1 now. Why?

Beause when I see 2 red Ferrari cars coming down the circuit, I expect to see Kimi's red and white helmet in one of the cockpits. And it isn't. 

I miss seeing the number 1 on the front of Kimi's car.

I miss him and Massa being teammates.

Jean Todt (center) looks so happy and about to cry, like a proud papa at his sons' graduation. He's another one I miss too.

I miss seeing him in the red Ferrari suit.

I miss him winning with Ferrari.

I've never seen him smile this big before :D

Sebastien Loeb: "Come to Rally man. It's great here! No shitty politics like in F1. My trophy even looks like a fancy chio goblet!" F U! _|_

I miss his cryptic interviews in his terrible slurry monotone Kim-lish at post-race press conferences.

I miss seeing him guzzling champagne on the podium instead of spraying it like everyone else does.

I expect to see his name on the timesheets, "K Raikkonen". I expect to hear about him making fastest laps in every race. I expect him to BE THERE. I miss him being the F1 driver I've known and loved for years. It's just all very heartbreaking, and I'm having a hard time accepting it, even after 5 months.

Well, it isn't true that I watched Formula 1 just for Kimi, or I liked F1 just because I like Kimi. I truly do (did?) love it. But! I loved the F1 of the past. The structure of the teams, and the drivers, the tight Ferrari-McLaren competition, the familiarity of it all...

Everything has changed this year. I don't deal very well with change. It takes me a long time to accept things, and adjust to them.

But I guess Kimi is happy where he is now, in the World Rally Championship. He may not be great at it, like he is at F1, but he likes it. Since they don't show Rally on any of the Astro sports channel (as far as I know), I went on the WRC website to look for videos (smart hor? :D)

With his co-driver Kaj Lindstrom. Imagine that, Iceman's got a co-driver now!

Arctic Rally in Sweden. It's so bizarre to see his name on the side of that car.

Rally is some fucking scary shit I tell you!!! Go see for yourself if you don't believe me. Rally Sweden 2010. Rally Mexico 2010.

In the 2nd rally of the season in Mexico, Kimi had an accident and rolled his car off the road. So scary :( I don't understand Finnish so it just sounded like Kimi's co-driver was praying for his dear life the entire time, LOL!!

It's so heart-pounding cause it looks like Kimi's just flying blindly around terrifying corners! But there's no one to overtake T_T It's really nothing like F1 at all. It's gonna take me some time to learn all the technical aspects of Rally, like how I know everything about F1 all the way inside and out. 

I guess Formula 1's dangerous and heart-pounding in it's own way too. 

It's okay, the people in those photos, Ralf Schumacher and Felipe Massa, are just fine. Thank God.

I love you, Iceman. 

Even if you aren't the best at conveying emotions most of the time.

Sigh. :)

Image sources:

http://olympic-spirit.blogspot.com/2007/12/2007-fia-awards-gala-held-in-monaco.html

http://www.zimbio.com/Kimi+Raikkonen/pictures/pro

http://witchy06.spaces.live.com

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Kimi-tunturi10-ss8-04.png

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Raikkonen_Spain_2009.jpg

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http://www.motorward.com/2009/11/kimi-raikkonen-joining-mercedes-or-going-rallying/

http://www.motorward.com/2009/12/official-kimi-raikkonen-signs-with-citroen-wrc-team/
http://38kg.blogspot.com/2009/06/f1-fia-to-announce-2010-entry-list.html

I don't usually ramble so you have to read!

Was supposed to post this yesterday but I got bogged down by my Character Building project. I dunno why lately, I've been feeling sien to blog? I'm just so busy that blogging has turned into a chore rather than a hobby. Not good at all! I have blog posts, prepared and drafted, backed up till infinity like a bloody clogged toilet!

Buuut, since I'm done with my Character Building project, I thought I'd seize the opportunity to blog! For something so last minute, I actually think my project is quite cute? Yes, that's my trumpet blowing, I know you can hear it. I can't wait to upload it and show you!

I had sneak peeks of some other people's projects, and most consisted of words, words and yes, more words! And if it's pictures, it's usually photos of family, friends or things they like. Very few photos of themselves! Not that I have anything against it, but I vividly remember Miss Jane specifying that she wanted "pictures, not words".

So in stark contrast, mine, reflecting my obviously narcissistic (all girls are somewhat like that, no meh?) nature, is full to the brim with photos of yours truly. And I purposely picked all the chio ones too! LOL!

Well, it is MY self-portrait and porfolio after all.

First Formula 1 race of the 2010 season was Sunday night, in Bahrain! I was too depressed about "K Raikkonen" not being there with his messy blonde hair, indistinguishable Kim-lish, chocolate ice-cream bars, red car, red suit and red helmet that I couldn't pay attention to the TV screen as Steve Slater rambled on. Also, wtf, first race supposed to be in Australia what!

Fuck, I wanna cry looking at this. Kimi's only win in Belgium last year T_T

I can't even be happy that Ferrari, for the first time in too long a time, had a 1-2 finishing position. Or that Massa is back, driving in good health. I just want Kimi back :( This is too depressing! Now I have to watch World Rally to see him. And I hate that stuff! Guys in ugly cars driving through nasty muddy terrain. So unglam compared to F1, the pinnacle of motorsport!

From this...

To this :(

What turf, I didn't know cars could fly. Safe one meh??

I notice they've got Santander as a sponsor this year instead of Etihad Airways. I agree, not enough red, Ferrari designers!

F1 always reminds me of gay guy sex change drag queen Miss America ba zhang Bruneian scholar a.k.a. Ya Wen the Man. And I wrote all that without even pausing to think or check any references! It just rolls right off my tongue cause I use it so often lol.

The Psychotic Elven Princess is back home for the holidays. Which means TRADITION and nyaman juicieeess! As usual, we (including Sharlyn and Manda) are having a hard ass time coordinating our schedules to find a night where we're all free :( I might have to skip Physics tuition on Thursday night and let's just say my mommy won't be happy!

She wasn't very happy when she found out that 'O'-Level exam fees is 400 fucking buckaroos. Inflation like mad can or not! Think of all the shoes I could buy with that money... Approximately 20 pairs! :O *mourns*

P/S: Why do I have a sudden craving for udon? Fat, fat, slippery noodles. This is all Lilian and her tomyam udon's fault! Haiyah. Although, I could be confused and maybe the craving is actually for Penang curry laksa. I want that pretty badly too! I always wonder why I'm not 70kg...

The laksa I eat in Penang near my Ah Ma's flat looks a lot like this! I always ask the laksa woman (that's what we call her) not to put in any veggies or cilantro or whatever other nonsense goes into laksa. I eat it with only the fish. *drools*

Tomyam udon. Looks fucking similar! Both curry colour with fat noodles!

Food and Formula 1.

If you thought I'd given up on blogging again, you were wrong. Here I am! I've just been really depressed and didn't feel like blogging the past few days. Wanna know why? It could potentially bore you, though.

The news is everywhere now that Fernando Alonso is moving to Ferrari next year, replacing Kimi Raikkonen, but when I first found out it was official, I started crying like crazy and I just couldn't stop.

It's so freaking heartbreaking!! No more Massa-Raikkonen partnership, no more Monza home race, no more Italian national anthem, no more shining red car and prancing horses, no more "Kimi Raikkonen's Ferrari"!

Instead Kimi's likely to become teammates with Lewis Hamilton in McLaren!!! Omg, just kill me now. I'm gonna be so confused as to which team/driver to support! It's gonna tear me apart. WHY GOD WHY???

When I was watching the qualifying yesterday and I saw Kimi's car roll out onto the Suzuka track in Q1 and Steve Slater said "the Ferrari of Kimi Raikkonen", I just started crying uncontrollably for such a long time. (Yes, I turn a manly, racing sport into an emo girly sobfest.)

Formula 1 as I've known and loved it for the past few years will be gone forever. I'm just gonna cherish the last 3 races of the season while Kimi is still at Ferrari to the fullest. At the end of the day, I actually hope McLaren will hire Kimi because I just don't want him to leave. I don't know what I'll do if I won't be able to see "K Raikkonen" or "1 RAI" on the score sheets anymore.

I have a habit of taking pictures of food, and they accumulate over time. I also realize you can look at a photo of food you've never eaten before taken with the highest quality DSLR to show all the textures and it still won't look as yummy as a photo of a food you know and like taken with a lousy camera.

So, in order of date...

Penang pasembur.

Green mint flavoured mooncake.

Glutinous nasi kunyit with curry chicken.

Cornetto chocolate ice-cream.

Alcohol chocolate. It's some super nice chocolate with rum liquid inside. The rum was fucking disgusting okay!!! Cb so bitter like what!! I almost wanted to die. Tasted like bloody cough mixture! I ended up rinsing out all the rum with water then just eating the plain milk chocolate.

Toasted oats.

KFC meltz and cheezy wedges!!! I did get to eat it again in Malaysia after all because of my extended holidays. So happy! It was so yummy. Although I could've sworn it shrank in size...

Homemade pizza.

Blackforest cake.

Seashell-shaped chocolates.

Colourful mooncake!

Pink mooncake!! With tau sar filling. So chio!

Beryll's praline chocolates.

P/S: I'm missing the Belalong people! Hope you guys are had fun in the jungles, secluded and cut off from the world, and I'll see you all on Monday! Boy, I miss reading Jia Yee's blog updates. And I hope Maria isn't throwing in the towel AGAIN!

P/P/S: I had the most wonderful dream ever on Friday!!! Until I didn't want to wake up till 4.30 pm. It was sooo nice!! Would love to have the same dream again.

♥ queen of babble