Farewell 2009.

Happy New Year's Eve!

Well here it is, my last blog post of the year.

Christmas is over, resolutions have been made and it's time to hail in the new year. What better way to do that than with a spanking new blog layout?

2009 has taught me so many things...

• To have faith because wishes do come true... sometimes;
• Your life can change forever for good or bad in just a few seconds based on one single decision, a decision you may celebrate, or regret;
• Love is hard and messy and maybe I'll wait;
• There's always a first time, again, good or bad;
• I don't have to do my best and things will still be alright;
• Making new friends can be so worth it;
• Being nice pays off;
• I can be so committed and go to the ends of the earth when I want something;
• I'm selfish and jealous, please understand that it's just my nature;
• Good and bad things happen when you least expect them to;
• Not everything goes your way and you just have to accept it and know when to let go, regrets are useless;
• Being a powerless bystander in your own life and seeing, knowing, that somebody else calls the shots, sucks plain and simple;
• Friendships should always be treasured;
• If you see an opportunity, take it and think later, because chances go by so so fast;
• I like wanting what I can't have, even if I'm too scared to follow through when the time comes;
• I'm growing up fast and leaving childhood behind and maybe, just maybe, I'm ready for the transition. I may even be looking forward to the future and a change of view. Maybe I have changed. Or maybe I've just peeled away the outer layers to reveal what's been inside all along.

Okay, I'm sure there's more but I can't be arsed to crack my head and think.

2009 has been a good year, and a bad year. One that passed way too fast. Lost chances and broken friendships, sacrifices, secrets, regret and tears, mixed with forbidden love, newfound and rediscovered friends, hobbies and passions found, and a lot of great times along the way.

So many unexpected things came knocking, and I had some of the best, and worst times of my life. To say it was a pivotal and defining year would be an understatement. It was... an adventure. I think, in the end, I finally let myself be me. I'm finally free.

When the clock strikes 12 tonight, watch the fireworks in the sky and the year will be over. Say your last goodbyes to 2009. It'll be a whole new year. Square your shoulders and face it head on. Decide that it will be a good year, better than the last.

2010. What do you have in store for me? Who will I meet? Who will I gain, and who will I lose? What will I do? What challenges will I face? What decisions will I have to make? Will there be more laughs, or more tears?

Only time will tell. Life is tough, but I think I'm tougher. Bring it on, 2010 (I think?).