If there's a will, there's a way.

That saying is so true it’s disgusting. Something I’ve realized lately is that anybody can do anything as long as they really set their heart to it.

Very few things in the world are easy to do, easily achieved or handed to you. If you really want something enough, you won’t stop until you get it, you won’t let anything stand in your way, you won’t settle for less.

But wants require either one or both of two things: hard work and money. And if you really have the desire, you can even do enough of the first to overcome lack of the second.

I realized that not everybody strives to be the best. Not THEIR best, THE best. Not everybody WANTS to be the best, not everybody does things wholeheartedly, some people are completely okay with just being average.

Until now, I always naively thought EVERYBODY wanted to be the best. But that’s not true, it’s a choice that’s up to each of us to make: Awesomeness or mediocrity?

This post is not about constructive criticism, it’s not about judging people. It’s about taking a surface look at what drives someone to achieve their goals, and how nothing is really that impossible.

I think it's safe to say that I am a person that strives. No matter what I do, I always have the burning desire to be THE best and do MY best. And sometimes, if I work my ass off, MY best IS THE best.

When I don’t excel or succeed in what I do, I don’t like how it feels. I get a lot of self-worth from my successes and almost define myself by them. It's not a good thing, but it's how I am.

I think most people fail not for lack of ability, but for lack of trying.

We can all be great at the things we choose to do, be it studies, skills, sports, anything! We just have to WANT it enough to make the sacrifices and put in 110% effort. Because where there is a will, there will always be a way.

Like right now, I want to learn music, art, dance and a new language. But I do feel like I have more passion towards music and languages so the other two will probably fade into the background with time, but the two that I REALLY want, I will go out of my way to make sure I achieve.

I have the desire to LEARN music, art, dance and a language. But I only have the desire to play music and speak that language. Not draw nor dance. There is a difference.

I do think although I may not be conventionally talented (or may just not discovered my talents fully yet), I have a great capacity to learn. I want to learn. I ENJOY learning things and polishing my skills.

But it is the passion, the burning desire to DO that will drive you to continue even beyond the learning process and not give up or settle for “just okay”.

It’s also important to figure out WHAT motivates you. The motivation of material objects never lasts very long, I find. The kind of motivation that's strongest and most unwavering is motivation that comes from within, motivation to want to BE something.

My motivations are that I want to do really really well in life and open up a world of opportunities for myself, I want that addictive feeling of success and I don’t ever want to be forced to regret not striving. Because it’s a choice.

One thing I believe is that successful people are those who strive. Those who never stop going, never say this is enough for me, and continue pushing themselves to improve until they are the very best at what they do. Complacency is a successful person’s biggest enemy.

So think about it. With ‘O’-Level’s looming, what do you want? Are your motivations strong enough? And are you striving for what you want?


I have awful PMS today. I feel so down in the dumps. But when I’m done writing this, I’m going to go pick up my textbooks and make sure every single word I study stays in my head.

Because the down in the dumps feeling of PMS? That goes away rather quickly. I don’t think the down in the dumps feeling of not having done as well as I’m capable of, will go away that easily.


P/S: I really suck at writing wordy blog posts! Always so boring T_T I salute you if you managed to make it all the way till here and bothered to read this small font.

KOTD: Pinkalilly Swirlus.

Three words. LOVE THIS KONADICURE!!! It's so sweet and kua zhang dainty and girly, just the way I like it!

My hand and Mischa Barton's face hahaha. This was when she was still gorgeous and the 'it' girl, on a 2004 issue of Seventeen magazine.

The background for these photos was actually my laptop monitor on screensaver! Had to balance my camera on a cotton bud container on my touch pad. Innovativeness ftw :P

Used The Face Shop PP407, Elianto #40 Twilight Zone and Konad Special Polish White, and Konad image plates M57 and M63. I absolutely adore this shimmery pink polish and the designs are from 2 of my favourite plates. A guaranteed recipe for success!

The Konadicure Of The Day name is such a boliao play on Piccadilly Circus. I tried to find the photos of me and my parents at Piccadilly Circus when I was 6, but I've no idea where my dad put the family albums box!!! D: (No it's not an actual circus, I still have no idea why it’s even called that! :S)

Bought 3 new nail polishes from Face Shop and 3 new Konad plates from **** the other day!!! Love all of 'em so much especially WH003 (the pearlescent shimmer)!!! The yellow and purple were much more vivid on nails then I expected which is good!

And I've really gotta stop recommending **** to people, the 4th Konad image plate I wanted (M59) was sold out AGAIN (I went looking for it twice before)!!! The shopkeeper said they sold the last one yesterday T_T Who the heck is that annoying person who bought it now I have to go search elsewhere!!! Gah-reat.

WH003, YL702 and PP408. This brings me to a total of 13 bottles of Face Shop nail polish :O

M40, M62 and M71. I've now 9 image plates, yay!!! Will continue hunting for my 10th.

Anyway, this time the shopkeeper was a Chinese lady and she was really nice and friendly! We chatted about nail art and she complimented my Konadicure hehe.

I really enjoy it when shop people (or even strangers) compliment my nails (yeah I'm conceited in saying it happens quite frequently, but at least I earned it), gives me such a kick and makes me feel like my hard work is appreciated ^^

I AM A SUCKER FOR GREAT CUSTOMER SERVICE MAN. I have quite a good gauge of which shops will make me feel like a million bucks when I go in and love going to those, and which shops treat patrons like crap *cough SaSa cough*

Gah, sorry I got nothing against SaSa’s products but their salesgirls are JUST. SO. RUDE. They follow you around the entire store at a distance of 1 foot and yabber some crap about promotions in Mandarin every 5 seconds. And cannot speak English! *throws miscommunication tantrum* (HEY, do NOT say this is my fault for not knowing Chinese! They are a reputable beauty store in a MULTILINGUAL country, but they only want Mandarin-speakers' business?!?!)

NEVER before have I been to a store where all the salesgirls are monolingual. I’m not the only person you will find who dislikes SaSa’s salesgirls and has written about it. I hope they work on changing that soon, they'll definitely get loads more customers.

Anyway, enough digressing! I decided to answer a reader question in this post! This should be interesting…

Firstly, thanks for the compliment! I owe it mostly to Leelou Blogs who makes gorgeous free layouts ♥

To answer your question, by “French tip Konad” do you mean the Konad plate for plain French tips? E.g.:

Cause if that’s the case, I really don't know cause I don't use that. It looks too hard, instead I recommend using DIY French tip stickers! The stick, paint and peel method is still the fastest and easiest way for perfect French tips I think. Explanation here. I did ‘em free-hand for the first time in my previous Konadicure though!

But if you’re talking about patterned French tip Konad, e.g. my previous Konadicure, I use French tip stickers to help me with that too. The problem with French tip Konad is it's hard to stamp it straight, but you don't have to worry about that if you use stickers.

And I’ve prepared a short photo tutorial for everyone!

For my French tip stickers, I use reinforcement rings cut in half cause I think actual French tip stickers are so overpriced!!! These rings are like $3 for 500 at anywhere that sells stationery. That’s 1000 french tips we’re talking about!

Whether you’re using a full nail design (like I am) or a French tip design, the method for this step is the same.

Super duper easy! Hope it helps :)

I don’t mind answering questions about how I do my nails, so ask away! (As long as you’re serious about it and not trying to waste my time alrighty.)

Buuuut, it's aggravating when people ask me irl, then don't bother to listen to the explanation because it sounds too difficult. HELLO, YOU ASKED!?!? At least TRY to look semi-interested, don't just gimme a blank look then say "Oooookay" and turn away -_-"

Next time – nail art tips!

Okay, QUESTION. What do you guys think about me painting fake nails for sale? Would any of you be even remotely interested in wearing my designs? Lol if I ever do, I'll probably price ‘em really cheap cause I doubt people would wanna pay much anyway.

Then if I'm a total failure and nobody buys, I can just were them myself! :D No losses.

I’ve thoroughly enjoyed writing such a long nail post, as much as I enjoyed watching the MTV VMAs last night (2 nominations and a win for Mars, woohoo! But ugh, Chelsea Handler stunk. ELLEN G NEXT YEAR KTHX :D).

So you’d better have enjoyed reading it! ;)

The guy of my dreams! . . . Sorta.

Recently, Mr Richard asked an interesting question in Character Building class. "What are some of the qualities you want/look for in a guy?" This meaning like, future husband, boyfriend, etc (mate?!).

Just felt like clarifying the 3 qualities I spoke about (I am AWFUL at spontaneous improvisation so the answer I gave in class was really short and stilted).

Okay, in a super ideal world and situation, I'd want a guy who's...

1.) Smart.

And I mean in terms of brains. Really doesn't have to be like rocket-scientist, straight A's, Mensa type.

But you know, at least somewhat intellectual and knowledgeable so I can pick his brain at times and we can have stimulating nerdy discussions/conversations!

I used to have Bruneian poklens hit on me and ask me out and AHEM, I think you can tell for yourself the huge mental gap there ("used to" cause I grew up and learnt to get the fuck away from that crowd).

2.) Funny.

As in a good sense of humour and can make me laugh and tell jokes and stuff. Or just say random funny things. Cause, sadly, I'm not THAT funny of a person (don't expect to have very many laughs when you visit my blog T_T).

I have a good sense of humour yeah, but when I say things meant to be funny, nobody ever laughs! Instead, they laugh when I say something that I don't even realize is funny at first... :S

So if like I date someone else not funny/no comic timing... die lah our relationship every day also stare at each other with stone face lagi -_- That would so never work out.

3.) Caring.

He has to care about me, my wellbeing, my feelings, my opinions and our relationship. And he has to show it. Can't be some reckless fool playing with my emotions (gah)!

I think all girls want the caring, lowmantic type who makes them feel really secure. And if they don't, they bloody well should!!


As you can see, I'm not unreasonable at all in my demands! Super simple ones only :) Cause I know I'm far from perfect too.

May I point out that LOOKS and MONEY isn't even on the list!!! To be honest, I mostly look at character only. Because I truly think that looks are in the eye of the beholder, everybody has different tastes. The guy you might find very fugly, could look really cute to me loh! I've seen girls get dreamy over guys who I honestly think look REALLY bad. See? All about individual tastes. "Hot/sexy/cute" is subjective!

And as long as he's not a beggar/destitute (where the fuck would I even meet guys like this anyway?? School, workplace, club?! I don't think so!), then I'm okay already, because I plan to make my own fortune! *eiseh*

However, I know that at the end of the day, when you fall in love with someone, all this "criteria" just fly out of your head. You cease to think, to be rational, to have reason. That head-over-heels feeling. God knows I've been involved with enough guys who are so totally wrong for me to know what it's like already.

But I suppose, marriage is (supposed to be) different. When you're ready to make that final decision, you really have to take a step back and evaluate your relationship and ask yourself, is this the person I truly want to spend the rest of my life with? No naive whirlwind romance nonsense!!!

Hopefully, one day I'll have enough sense to ask myself that very question when the time comes.

So... if you're single right now, care to share what are some of the things you'd look for in a guy/girl? :)

Aspirations.

Today, I dragged myself out of bed at 6.30 am, fever, sore throat, runny nose and all, and was half an hour late for school.

I still feel like death warmed over, my nose is so stuffed that everything I say sounds like it starts with a letter H T___T Hair's huhink hi hate whore hand hallink hick! (3 stars for whoever knew what I said!)

We had career and higher education talks at school. Representatives from a few Malaysian universities came to brief us on their courses, and our options for the future.

I was once again faced with pondering a daunting dilemma. For years I've had my mind set on becoming a lawyer. Now, with each passing day, I become less and less certain.

When one of the speakers mentioned Nail Technology, my classmates voiced my name, and I felt a burst of pride. Obtaining recognition and appreciation for something you love doing has got to be one of THE best feelings IN THE WORLD.

I dream of becoming a manicurist, and opening my own nail parlour, and running the hottest nail blog in Malaysia.

I also dream of studying journalism, and becoming a writer, and writing for a Malaysian women's fashion magazine.

But I know these are both not papa-approved paths for my future. My parents, especially my dad, does not think these are acceptable careers for his could-be-brilliant daughter. My sisters are both Dr.'s, and I am naturally expected to aspire to something of similar caliber.

My parents only wish to see me succeed and they will do whatever necessary to help me achieve that. It is, essentially, flattering to know that they believe in me enough to think I can become a lawyer.

I don't know what my definition of success is yet. It's probably got something to do with money. When people say it's not about how much you make, it's about how happy you are, that's bullshit.

Life isn't always all about happiness, that I know now, unless you were born under a lucky star. It's about striking a balance and making sacrifices.

So, in order to not let my parents down, in order to strike that balance, I will become a lawyer. I will become successful and do well for myself and be able to support my parents in their old age. I will be able to afford a pair of Christian Louboutin's with my first paycheck.

This list is from a post I drafted in December 2009 titled "Aspirations":

1.) To own a pair of Christian Louboutins before I'm 30. (Bought with my own money, of course.)

Shoe-maker to the stars. 

2.) To become a paid blogger by the time I'm 20. (I suppose I already am kinda a paid blogger, having made a meager RM1.75 in my maiden week as a Nuffnanger.)

 

3.) To own and drive a pink car.

I think this would be like my perfect first car! Or I guess I could just get my sister's old Proton Wira spray-painted pink next year T_T

4.) To become an awesome lawyer with super chio clothes! (Errr...)

Not that I don't want to (become a lawyer), I do. Honestly, of all the "high-flying, papa-accepted" career choices, it's my favourite.

But I no longer dream of it every day the way I used to.

Do I choose to take a risk for happiness, or risk happiness for duty? This is my crossroads.

The small boobs issue.

(Not recommended for the few guys who lurk my blog, unless you're brave and empathic.)

I've had this in my Drafts for quite a long time now, but Jia Yee blogging about embracing her height gave me the boost I needed to finally post this.

Before I start, I'd like to say that I don't have anything against girls with big boobs. If you're born naturally busty, well good for you! 

But some of us girls aren't as fortunate.

Or at least I used to think a flatter chest was a misfortune, or even a curse. I even seriously considered getting plastic surgery or something to "correct" it.

Now I realize how silly I was, because there's no need to correct something that's perfect just the way it is, that needs no correction.

What's wrong with not having huge boobs? Absolutely nothing. Girls aren't made all the same, so we don't all have the same cup-size. Thus, there isn't just one size that is "acceptable" or "right".

If we (speaking on behalf of all late-bloomers) love our small boobs and are fine with it, what right does anyone have to tell us otherwise? None. We shouldn't have to be judged for something we have no control over.

The mentality that bigger boobs immediately equates to beauty is completely wrong. Not that girls with big boobs aren't beautiful, but all my life growing up I have been bombarded by the subconscious message that because I am flatter-chested, I am automatically not pretty enough.

That is so wrong, in so many ways. It is so wrong to let girls grow up thinking that boobs are all that matters. Valuing a girl merely by the size of her chest is demeaning and demoralizing.

Wanting bigger boobs is so often a self-esteem or confidence issue. And even more often, what other people think doesn't matter, because we are our own worst critics. You are the only one who can change your frame of mind, and decide that you are comfortable with what you were born with.

So lately, I've been searching for Hollywood stars who have smaller boobies just like me, and who are absolutely gorgeous. They are role-models to me because they are so confident, in a world where girls their age are hopping in and out of the plastic surgeon's office on a daily basis.

Dianna Agron (Glee).

Alessandra Ambrosio, far right (Victoria's Secret Angel).

AnnaLynne McCord (90210).

I have small boobs and I like 'em. For other girls with small boobs, you'll know how convenient they are too! Another useful thing is... you'll know a boy likes you for you, and not how well you fill out your tight shirt. And when you need cleavage, push-up bras come to the rescue. We have the best of both worlds!

In an image-obsessed world, surrounded by body-conscious teenagers and all sorts of peer pressure, I am a 16-year-old learning to love my body, just the way it is. I am beautiful, and you are too :)

Don't ever let anyone else, boy or girl, convince you otherwise, because that just makes them bitter, mean and sad for trying to put another person down.

Darryl: "I don't wanna marry a girl with huge boobs."

Me (obviously confused): "Huh, why?! I thought all guys like big boobs."

Darryl: "No, cause when they're old, it will landir (sag)."

BAHAHAHHAHAHAH wtf Darryl!!! (Forgot how we ended up talking about boobs in the first place. xD)

Want fake gigantic boobs? Nah.

Bedazzled Franken-tittays. How do you like that? Heidi Montag seriously needs to get herself a bigger bikini.

Stella's bookclub.

I ♥ to read.

Let me repeat that: I looooove to read.

I'll read practically anything I can get my hands on, from newspapers to restaurant delivery menus, blogs to mundane in-flight magazines, the backs of DVD covers to the fine print on my makeup packaging!

Hmm, that's mostly boring shit, so of course I prefer books.

I started reading when I was 4 (I know people who started at 3, makes me feel stoopit T_T), Peter and Jane then Enid Blyton, and I've never looked back. Sometimes I don't understand how some people can even say they hate reading, it just doesn't make sense to me...

I guess you could call reading a hobby, as nerdy as that sounds. I think it's good to be a nerd B) It's sure much better than being a whole lot of other things, if you know what I mean. *darting eyes*

There's honestly nothing much to do when I'm back in Penang on holiday, besides the occasional shopping trip (in Penang, I've seen all the malls before, so I only go when I need to tick something off my shopping list), visiting the grandma, eating, sleeping, online a couple of hours a day...

I finished the book I brought back with me, Will You Be There? by Guillaume Musso, two days after I got here -_- It's nice, but somehow a bit strange because it's translated from French and I guess the essence of it got... lost in translation. (Pun intended :D)

Then I read backdated copies of AstroView magazine (Keanu Reeves on the cover of December 2009 inspired me to watch the old Matrix CD on the shelf... I was having such a nice time watching, totally engrossed, finished Disc 1 and tadah! Disc 2 had some kind of clear sticky gunk on it. Might as well throw it away :( *potong steam*) before I finally made a trip to the Penang Sports Club library.

WHICH IS ABSOLUTE LAV!!! ♥♥♥ <-- See all the hearts??

It's not as big as say... our school library, but it's 15862973x better!!! Stuffed full of awesome books and magazines, everything you could possibly think of! Found rows and rows of nostalgic Sweet Valley books and a huge-ass collection of old ARCHIE COMICS!!! *squeals*

Plus a reading room, WiFi and a really friendly librarian. I wish I could just live in there forever. *melts* But sadly, I was denied. It closes at 8.30 pm.

I picked 3 books that I've been wanting to read for quite a while to bring home with me. When on holiday, all a girl wants is fun, fluffy chick lit.

The Secret Shopper's Revenge by Kate Harrison. I saw this book at Booker in Brunei when I was deciding how to spend my B$20 book voucher, but I inevitably chose the Guillaume Musso one. Guess now I get to have my cake and eat it too! Getting to read both books for free is ♥

I think Kate Harrison may be my one of my new favourite chick lit authors, behind Sophie Kinsella (I will forever be faithful to you, my darling *doe eyes*). The story's really... heart-warming, I can't think of any other word. And it's really funny too! Laughed out loud more times than I can count. And her style of writing is really nice, not crass, the way some other chick lit authors are. And although it's sort of about shopping, it's nothing at all like Shopaholic. So overall = lotsa, lotsa ♥'s!

Jemima J - Jane Green. I had no idea this book was published in 1998! But I've read good reviews about it online, and I was curious about this Jane Green person. The first half of the book is really bizarre and honestly the opening storyline and premise is not nice at all. But I persevered cause I had nothing else to do and boy, does it get better!!

In the end you realize it's not actually a book about a pathetic, miserable, self-loathing fat girl who thinks being thin is the answer to all her problems (see what I mean about shitty opening story?), but about a person with insecurities who's just looking for some luck, and learns to be brave enough to take a risk for happiness. I'm sure a lot of people, including myself, can easily relate.

So yeah, if you think you can make it through the first boring and annoying half (warning you, I did not even laugh ONCE) of a damn thick book, then I totally recommend this! I even cried at the end! It's quite an eye-opener. And Jane Green has a pretty nice writing style.

Chasing Harry Winston - Lauren Weisberger. Read both her previous books, The Devil Wears Prada and Everyone Worth Knowing (didn't LOVE them, but they were okay), so I thought I've give this one a shot. I think I managed to read 2 chapters, then I had to return it today, because we're leaving for KL tomorrow.

Skipped out on Certain Girls by Jennifer Weiner because, well, I was only allowed to borrow 3 books and sorry, the sequel to a book I've never read before just didn't make the cut. I hate that confused bong boh (unable to catch the drift) feeling when I'm reading!

I'm back at the library today, returning the books I borrowed. And I managed to find EVEN MORE that I want to read!! The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants series, Diary of a Wimpy Kid, Letters from Father Christmas and Anne Rice books.

This is just too much! *runs around library like a kid in a candy store*

P/S: Oh oh! I am now a Nuffnang Glitterati! How cool is that?? LOL sakai much. And I ♥ the Analytics section... I found out that people from UK, Norway, Australia, Canada, Serbia, Germany, Italy and America have visited my blog! And the number of visits I get per hour, what referring link they used, which Google keyword they searched... How stalkerish is that! xD But my earnings still RM0 wtf... This is obviously not my day!!
Plus, I missed a meet-up with my contact lens seller at Queensbay yesterday cause I couldn't check my email. Now I have to call her up to reschedule.
And some fucktard phone shop in Bukit Jambul told me that it'll cost RM90+ to get a new casing for my phone. FUCK YOU LA!! I buy from eBay only B$6, plus free shipping somemore! -____-

Lady Gaga the Bizarre.

Watched her new video for Alejandro last night. I know I must be the most outdated person in the world, behind the 12,000,000+ who have already seen it, but I just couldn't be bothered to till now.

Blame boredom, it drove me to it, and now you have to read this post about how much I disliked the video. Which is A LOT.

Regardless of whether you believe or are for/against that whole Illuminati thing of hers, Lady Gaga is obviously a woman of absolutely no morals. Zero. Zilch!

The video is downright disgusting and creepy!!! Besides all the gross sexual shit, there's also all her Illuminati symbolism and slamming the Catholic church, etc, etc, the list goes on.

I know she's trying to be "different", to not conform, to stand out in the crowd, to break away from the chains of society, but does she really have to do it like THIS?!?! By being blasphemous and immoral???

I'm sure there are other ways to be unique but she probably just wanted to pick the most controversial one that would garner her the most attention in the shortest time. Wise business move, I must admit.

But you can't deny she's sending a horrible message to young viewers and listeners about religion among other things! I may not care much for religion. If I had to define myself, I'd say I'm agnostic. Religion is way too overrated for me.

But I know religion matters to a lot of other people. And her music videos are like spit to their faces. A total insult to them.

She may think she's above everyone and everything and can do whatever she wishes, but she has tremendous impact on pop culture and the young generation. And she is repeatedly and purposely using that power to send out all these negative messages.

That isn't called being "different" anymore. That's called brainwashing people.

For two seconds, I thought the song was nice and catchy. Until I read this among the YouTube comments:

ALEJANDRO=man's defender and protector(GOD).

FERNANDO=ardent for peace(JESUS).

ROBERTO=bright or shining flame(HOLY SPIRIT).

HOTTER THAN MEXICO= HELL

Incorporate this into the lyrics:

"Don't bother me, Don't bother me, Alejandro (God)"

"Don't call my name, Don't call my name, Bye Fernando(Jesus)"

"I'm not your Babe (child), I'm not your Babe (child), Alejandro (God)"

"Don't call my name, Don't call my name, Roberto (Holy Spirit)"

In the Bible, the word "Babe" is used in place of "child".

-Exodus 2:6

That is some scary shit right there. I don't think I want to listen to her music anymore :S

I actually think it's ironic because her "little monsters" think they're being different and unique, etc by liking her, but since there are so bloody many of her fans out there, I actually think that non-conformity is achieved by NOT liking her. HAH!

Well, that's just my two cents. What does it matter what I think, right?

As for the Illuminati thing, you can read up about it (just Google Lady Gaga Illuminati) and believe what you want to believe. I'm not saying she IS a Satan worshipper, etc, I'm just saying she's immoral and has a bad influence on the generation and weaker minds who cannot decide and judge for themselves.

I think Alisa posted this link on her blog months ago, only now am I compelled to believe it after watching Alejandro. Lady Gaga's apparently not the only singer delving into Illuminati. Try thinking about any other female pop singers who have recently made a drastic and strange change to their style... Beyonce? Rihanna?

If you adore Lady Gaga for whatsoever reason though I may never be able to comprehend what goes on in your mind, then that's your choice, and there's nothing I can do about it, is there? I'm not forcing my opinion on anyone and I won't hate you for it.

Hate the game, not the players, they say. Lady Gaga being the game here, and her fans being the players I suppose.

And I will not be happy if some hater pulls that "you're just jealous of her" nonsense. Err, why would I be jealous of an immoral alleged Satan worshipper??? And not a very pretty one either. Rich and famous no doubt, but still immoral.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

You wanna be famous? You wanna be a star? You wanna in movies? 

You wanna have boobies...? xD

Being in Form 5, with graduation only 7 months away (:O!), each and every one of us is pressed with the tough choice... what happens after that?

Our childhood has flown by, and now we have to make the hardest decision yet. Where will we go from here? Who will we become? What will we do with the rest of our lives?

We've always thought that leaving home was so far away, in the distant future, that we didn't have to think about it yet. But now we do. It's looming upon us. We have to think hard, and choose fast.

I know what I want to be. I want to be a lawyer. Ever since I was 8, I've known I wanted to be a lawyer. A lot of people ask me, what made you decide? I always reply "It's a long story."

I think today is the day I tell that story.

When I was 8, I watched a movie. It was about an underestimated blonde girl who loved pink and had a big dream to prove herself to everyone.

Her name? Elle Woods. The movie? Legally Blonde.

"Meet Elle Woods. She's a lawyer with a heart of gold...and a mane to match!"

Okay, please don't laugh. Yes, I know how superficial it may sound, I chose my future career based on a Hollywood movie when I was 8. But Elle Woods made being a lawyer look so pretty and sophisticated and PINK!

I was mesmerized by Elle Woods, who was a college sorority girl and stereotyped bimbo who got dumped by her boyfriend and then decided to become a Harvard law student to win him back. She soon realizes that her boyfriend is a total prick who doesn't deserve all her hard work, so she ends up becoming a lawyer to prove that she's more than just a dumb blonde. And some other nonsense about overcoming obstacles, and nobody believing in her, etc etc.

She showed that you could have brains and beauty, and she's so strong-willed and opinionated and never gave up. She's sweet and bubbly and bold and most of all, CHIO! (This is also the movie where I fell in love with Reese Witherspoon.)

I know it's just a story from a movie, but I soon realized that we had some things in common, and I also had a lot of the qualities necessary to become a lawyer. 

Plus, I could already imagine myself in pink suits and high heels like her, sauntering around a courtroom, flipping my hair; buying a chio Mac laptop (not in a bunny suit lol!); getting my nails/hair done while studying.

I literally want to BE Elle Woods. I can just see it now!

Did I mention ALL THAT PINK she wears??? And THOSE SHOES?

Please, don't think I'm naive. I'm not. I know what lawyers actually have to do. It is not a fashion show and the courtroom is not a runway. I actually have personal skills that I consider to suit the future career of my choice.

But I found out recently that I have been HORRIBLY DECEIVED! (Okay la, maybe not so kua zhang?) 

It turns out thaaaat... lawyers can't wear colourful jewelry NOR PAINTED NAILS when they go to court.

FML!!!

AAAARGGGGHHHH!!! The nails, omg the nails! The sheer thought of not being able to do my nails is killing me. Can you imagine me, my whole life, with NAKED NAILS??? I think I'd rather die. Really.

You know, I think I'm such a mass-comm girl. I wanna be able to wear chio clothes to work, dye my hair and style it nicely, Konadicure my nails and wear killer heels. I don't think there are any sensible, high paying, professional jobs where I can do that!!! Sigh, so right now I just feel very tortured :(

Next time I go to any education fairs, conventions, talks, etc, the first thing I shall ask about the Law course is: Am I allowed to have fancy nails when I work as a lawyer? If they say no, I'll spit in their face!!

I MUST FIND A COUNTRY WHICH ALLOWS THEIR LAWYERS TO HAVE CHIO NAILS!!! I WILL MOVE THERE WITH NO HESITATION PLZ!!

Orrr... I could always go to beauty school! And then become a certified manicurist :D This is one of my more deep-seated and less-known dreams. My dad would sooner kill me than even think about letting me go to beauty school.

Although ironically, my namesake Stella, actually came from the name of none other than... a beauty school in Malaysia! It's called the Stella-In Beauty Academy!

My mom was undecided over what to name me after I was born, and then she saw the sign for Stella-In and thought that Stella would be a pretty name for her adorable little newborn. Interesting, huh? I bet you didn't know that! Maybe it's fate?

Okay, I'm digressing.

I guess, as always, I want to have my cake and eat it too. Maybe as an adult, you just can't do that anymore.

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